To Blog Or Not To Blog

My better half has instructed me to take up blogging again. I’ve thought about it several times, but I’m at the point where I just don’t know what to say. I never thought I’d be there, but I am. These past two years have been especially challenging for me as our community, collective family social life, schedules and basic way-of-thinking have been challenged and changed so dramatically. I realized recently that it all dates back to the miscarriage. It was at that point, that everything started changing for us. It wasn’t just the miscarriage that marked the change, but it was at that time that the changes started taking place that involved a whole host of things affecting us all around. The growth that has taken place since then is not to be discounted however difficult it may have been.

Easing into “Working Mom” status with a part-time job made the transition easier. Then when I moved into full-time work, I had the boys with me. It certainly had its fair share of challenges, but there were many aspects of working that I can appreciate and I came to enjoy. I even got a promotion in the short time I was there which boosted my enthusiasm for awhile. But when it came to caring for and teaching 14 2-and-3 year olds, keeping up with my own two sons and their needs, as well as preparing for dinners and lunches (which, I admit, went downhill fast – we ate out a lot and ate simple meals), keeping house, and being there for my husband, I quickly realized that my heart’s passion is really in being home and focusing more on my primary responsibilities. I’ll be the first to tell you that my multi-tasking skills are limited. And since prioritizing our lives, our home life and relationships have run smoother and closer-knit.

Fast forward a few months: I got knocked up, quit my job, decided to jump into church involvement, and started trying to build a community of friends around us. It’s not really going as well as I would like. But I suppose that’s to be expected since we’ve been so very very busy and somewhat out of the loop. It doesn’t make it any easier though.

But in the meantime, I just have to keep doing this:

"Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. What do we do? We swim, swim, swim."

Anyone recognize that little diddy?